Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Yearning

Lonely day...I almost drove to my old house to see if the apple trees were blooming...the trees here are lovely...but they don't have any history I can relate to. I yearn for my little pond..and the pond people...and the flowers around it.  This too shall pass.

I am so out of my element.

I have days that are so full of doing things and getting things done around here...and then there is nothing. It's all pretty much done. As much as I can get done without doing any landscaping and planting.  That may have to wait until next year. I watch the weeds grow.  In the front of the house and in the back...and get really fucking mad.  I could take "round up" to the weeds that are growing up from the landfill placed around the house..but then it would even look more depressing.  At least the weeds are green...and some of them are pretty interesting.  I have a huge one with the largest leaves ever...growing under my picnic table. It almost looks like a  hosta...but is not....and and some stink weed...clover... weird looking grasses... and not one dandelion!!  I'm guessing we only get those guys when you get a REAL lawn.

But I have to admit the forest behind us is impressive. I can now see the ferns and all the little stuff that grows all by itself in the wild. The old leaves I saw in October disappear....and make way for so many new plants.

Being a city dweller for so many years I find myself a little overwhelmed. I`ll  be back..................




5 comments:

Sally said...

I know it must be depressing, but it won't be forever. And, don't feel like the lone ranger; my yard has gone to s*it, and since I'll probably be moving within the next months or a year, it baffles me what to do. Put more money into or just let it go.? :)

Donna said...

Our friends in San Antonio live out in the country and what they do is lay mulch around the trees, in a natural looking pattern...then came some interesting shaped rocks, pots of flowers, etc... It's still "natural" but with that homey look...
Don't fret...It'll all come together for you...
hughugs

JUST A MOM said...

I commented it sucked and was not allowing me to post so carry on

Denise said...

Why not get a couple of big, cheap plastic pots to put by the door and throw a few annuals in there? Life is too short to watch sad weeds growing and feel sad about your yard.

Brenda said...

You'll soon have it set up the way you want it. Why don't you get some potted plants (flowers and veggies) and sit them around to enjoy.