Wednesday, May 25, 2011

It is what it is.

I am taking a break.  I have to get on with my life. 

I may regret saying this but after talking to him on Monday when he was lucid...he was a total prick. He may be depressed but the things he said to me were hurtful.   He is rude to all the staff in the hospital.  He did that the last time he was in as well. 

He kept on saying "we don't want him."  He just wanted to go home.  Nothing we said would help.  But this time he said he just wanted to die because everyone thinks he is a mental case..  Then he told his wife to fuck off when she tried to explain to him that he needed to be able to walk and eat properly before he could be released.  I think..he thinks he we will put him in a mental ward or something......

I don't know where all this is coming from....but if he keeps on acting this way..they might just do that.

I have to go back tomorrow...it's been two days off for me....

I'm not looking forward to it.

8 comments:

Sally said...

Hopefully tomorrow will be better, Joan. I hope so for all your sakes.

Donna (Texas) said...

Oh Lord Joan...If he's not normally this way when he's well, then you know it's the hormone changes in his brain talking.
Praying for you sweetie!!
hughughughugs

Judy Miller said...

I agree with Donna. Something else is going on to cause him to be this way and don't worry about the hospital staff--they have seen much worse and they understand. Don't take his words personally--just keep loving him--like you did when you were younger and he was your bratty brother!

Poolie said...

I am holding you in my thoughts. I wish there was something I could do.

Dawn said...

Thinking about you !

Anonymous said...

This is not uncommon in someone in the ICU. It will mostly likely go away. It's not really him. Think of it as another infection.

Kathy said...

I feel for you. This is how my mom gets. Not the prick-type behavior. But the "nobody wants me!" "They think I'm crazy!" "I just wish I would die!"

Yesterday, when I took her to the cardiologist, she was complaining to him about the Mayo Clinic and how "they forgot me! they don't care if I live or die!" This doctor, bless him - said, "I am not the Mayo Complaint Department!"

Oh how I howled with laughter! He shut my mother right up. Guess who's using that line now? I'm not only NOT the Mayo Complaint Department, I'm also not the Grocery Store Complaint Department, the Mexican Lawnmower Complaint Department, etc. Maybe you can use this approach with your brother! You're nobody's Complaint Department! You are now the official "If you Have Nice Things to Say, I'll Listen to Them Department!"

Joan said...

Oh he did the just wish I could just die stuff too.. but today...he wants to live "go him".