Thursday, January 29, 2009

Grace in small things and Graceless

.... I didn't have to make supper...there were left overs so I made spaghetti pie.

... it's supposed to get so warm on Saturday we might have rain. thank you lord.

... on a sad note I won't be a great aunt after all, my niece lost her baby. And I just can't find any grace in that. Nothing good can come from that. None at all.

And I did not demonstrate any Grace to her after I found about it on face book. I was mad she hadn't told me. I wrote her an email mostly telling her how sorry I was, but still pissed I had to find this out on face book. I should have just left it alone. This was her way of gently telling the world she lost her baby. I'm sure my family would have actually informed me somewhere down the line. Grace...is all I can think about. I must be graceful instead of pissed off. It's not about me, it's all about her and how she wants to handle it. It's a loss I would like to share with her if she needed me. And I told her I would. But, I don't want to get in her face. I know when I have problems and people get in my face asking to many questions, I blow them off. I need to take care of it by myself. Too many talking heads makes it worse sometimes. Solitude sometimes is the best medicine .... at least for me. I sent her another email tonight asking her to ignore my ranting. She's a good kid and very intuitive and she gets me....so I think she will be ok.

Life...she can be so stinky.

6 comments:

Brenda said...

Miz Joan, I'm so sorry to hear such sad news. Bless her heart, it will take some grieving to get through this and a sweet Aunt she knows loves her.

Bobbie said...

I'm so sorry to read that your niece lost the baby. It's always heartbreaking when that happens.

Sally said...

I'm very sorry to hear this, Joan. So sad. It seems lately a lot of us are having to learn about grace; when these terrible things happen we seldom really know how to act or react. My daughter is having a rough time also, and I've had to tiptoe because I honestly don't know how to help her.

Just being there, both you and I, it's about all we can do until they're ready. Take care, and don't beat yourself up. ((HUGS))

Nicole said...

I'm so sorry to read about your news. We all must remember to be graceful in all things but DARN it's hardwork.

Poolie said...

That is truly sad news. I hope the healing can begin. Please know I am thinking of you.

Donna said...

I'm sorry too Sweetheart...My niece-in-law lost her baby to...sad...I know you were really happy about it and finding about the loss on Facebook must have been a shocker...
Bless your hearts...(((HUG)))